July 31, 2005

Consider my core shaken

Let me tell you something first, when it comes to the arts, there is nothing in this blessed universe of ours that I love more than being shaken to core; in short I love being moved. I obsessively court excitement, searching for it even in places where I don't expect to find it. I am a blank slate waiting to be overwhelmed with the passions and emotions of others; I lie there expecting to thrown across the room. But as usual, such expectations are rarely satisfied. I am always surrounded by mediocrity. But lately I've felt that even the best of artists are inconsequential at best, and dishearteningly shallow at worst. I asked myself: where is the responsibility in art? When did music turn away from politics, or rather why did music stop caring about the collective and instead only aimed to express the individual?

So when I listen to music these days, I receive snapshots of individuals floating in a void. I receive fragments of emotions completely disconnected from anything else, as if the artist exists in a vacuum.

Then I came across K'naan, a Somali rapper from Toronto. I received his album The Dustyfoot Philosophers yesterday, from an auntie who had returned from America. I didn't listen to it immediately, my experience of Somali rap music has not been very heartening. Usually Somali artists don't think about personal input in a project they so desperately want to model on current best-selling rappers. They are usually too busy emulating African-American rappers who approach issues from a perspective rooted in their culture and their history. I don't think they realise that Somalis have a very poignant and unique perspective too, and instead they build on the golden gangster image they are taught to worship. Never mind that the vast majority of American rappers are completely inconsequential and painfully shallow. Most rappers, whether it be Ja Rule, Dr. Dre or even Jay-Z, make songs with the depressingly cynical intention of making more money. You can tell more devotion is expended on the beats and the mix, rather than on the person behind the words.

The sad thing is, Somali artists - who are all enriched by a cultured seeped in poetry - feel they have nothing better to say than "gangsta fo' life".

That's why I didn't want to listen to K'naan. In my own way, I had judged him long before he had a chance to overwhelm me; long before I had even heard of him. But I will be the first to admit it: when it comes to art, there's nothing I love more than being proven wrong.

K'naan is not simply a very good Somali artist. He is simply a great artist universally. A man who speaks globally, a man who speaks truthfully about the things that really concern him and not the things he thinks he should be concerned about; it is such a man whose relevance cannot be bound to just one market or to one label. Everyone interested in universal and individual truths, will be interested in him.

I don't want anyone dismissing me as a thug, or some shit like that


He is so far removed from the materialism and machoism from today's rap scene. Where self-glorification could never allow the kind of subtle self-deprecation that K'naan brings forth in some of his lyrics.

Over the course of the album, K'naan consistently releases the kind of dynamic poetry that can cross bridges and alert the world to the experience of a man which reflects that of an entire people.

I'll tell you straightforward...I'm poor / I come from the most dangerous city in the universe / you're most likely to get shot at birth


A harrowing line, delivered with a casual tone. This is K'naan and he doesn't glorify poverty or violence. This is a line from the powerful anthem If rap gets jealous. This song confirm K'naan as the kind of artistic reporter who illustrates the individual eye-witness account of war, at times with distanced objectivity and at times with a shaken voice struggling to hold back the tears, as happens on the track Voices in my head.

K'naan sees himself as part of a culture and that's the context he sells himself with. And when you're part of a culture, suddenly the range of topics and methods to express oneself widens; diversity and vibrancy is the result. Consider this as an evidence of an artist driven by more than money or self-gratification:

K'Naan was invited to Geneva to perform a spoken word piece at the 2001 50th anniversary of the UN Commission for Refugee's. In front of some of the biggest suits in the world, K'Naan brought the house down with his politically charged poem, K'Naan explains, "I basically called out the UN for its failed relief mission in Somalia." The audience was so moved by the piece that they gave K'Naan a standing ovation and African superstar Youssou N'Dour who was also in attendance loved the performance so much that he invited K'Naan to Senegal to record with him.


With K'naan I am seriously excited on two levels. First I had the exhilirating experience of being emotionally assaulted by such raw feverish music. The mix, the beats, the vocals, the entire production was a relentless torrent of undiluted emotion. On a second level, I am seeing clearly - perhaps for the first time - the perspective that I was talking about earlier; the perspective that is so unique to the Somali people; the perspective that I have lost over the years, along with my identity given to me by my ancestors.

I was about 7 years old when the war happened in my country. And while I was growing up, the war was just the affair of adults. The teachers at school treated me with excessive sympathy when the subject of war came up, but the truth was that the war didn't really affect me. Even when I became an adult, in my mind the situation in Somalia always seemed to be the concern of the previous generation. It still didn't affect me. Every day I would hear 'so and so was killed' and 'your cousin on your father's side, thrice removed was murdered'. I was a little sad, but not honestly devestated, the lives that had been consumed in the war were ones that were unfamiliar to me.

But lately, I have noticed other subtle ways the war might have touched me. I felt an air of depression in our Somali community, strong with the unexpressed frustration that every solution has become ineffective to a problem that seems to be without end, without limits and without hope. And I have noticed, that in sharing in this subtle frustration, in my own way I have been affected all along.

When listening to K'naan music, he brings these problems home and with it, he expresses the frustration felt by all of us. I don't think he's trying to change the situation in Somalia, I think he's trying to get us to want change, to crave it with our souls, I think he wants to remind us of our anger and of our sorrows for those who didn't make it out of the warzones. I think he wants us to shake with anger and frustration until we explode. Until that which bound us to silent frustration, releases us to shouts of anger. I think in a way, his songs are a battle-cry. The battleground is Mogadishu, the prize is freedom.

So thank you K'naan, for giving me perspective.

July 16, 2005

The art of being lost

Ever since the horrible attacks of last week, I have felt a little more unsure of my place in the world.

Terrible though the methods may be, I think the terrorists have succeeded in highlighting what is wrong with the world, or more specifically, what is wrong in the middle-east. I am trying to resist according blame simply because someone's reputation needs to pay for what happened. But I can't help it. I see Blair and Bush, and I hate myself for succumbing to their devious diversions from what they did in Iraq and the rest of the middle-east. There is the matter of Israel and its long-standing and often illegal campaign to undermine the Palestinian people, which still forms a sore point in the hearts of muslims. I can't help but feel overwhelmed by hate. I hate myself for being a little less angry as time passes since the start of the war, when in truth I should have been a thousandfold angrier. I hate myself for losing my passion and my hate of injustice.

But I'm starting to remember and I'm sure many other do too. The only people who will not admit a link between Iraq and Thursday's attacks, are those who are afraid of Britain losing its victim status.

"We haven't buried our dead, and you're already pointing fingers," they say angrily.

It is not a matter of pointing fingers, as much as finally noticing the big flashing neon finger hovering over the heads of Bush and Blair. I am not saying that they should have been afraid of acting justly for fear of terrorist attacks. When the need for intervention is there, no confirmed democratic superpower can justify passivity. But the problem is that Bush and co went on a campaign with unjust intentions and on the back of shady politics. Saddam is gone and 'democracy' has been granted for the people of Iraq. Great, well done for the Coalition, but remember, that's not why the went to war. They didn't set out to liberate an oppressed people or to remove a tyrant from his stolen seat of power.

In Islam, one is judged by the intentions of one's actions. And the intention of this war was to pursue Saddam for his weapons of mass destruction and apparently his willingness to use them on the West. That was the intention, let's not forget that. Freedom and democracy happened to be a happy accident. And while we're at it, multi-billion contracts for US and UK firms could also be counted as such.

But Blair and his little friend won. When we saw Saddam cowering in his hole, who could argue against the war? Well many people could, but they were suddenly outvoiced by many who couldn't.

However, in the middle-east many could argue and still do. They are not restricted by patriotic attachments to the Coalition and as such are free to see the human cost of the war without feeling guilty. As I suppose, many of those who try to justify the war are feeling. The middle-east didn't forget, and those westerners with ties to the middle-east didn't forget either. Namely the muslims. A couple of years later, there were those whose hate of the illegal war - unlike mine - grew stronger and more fierce. And suddenly, a couple of young men who kept quiet about their hate until it consumed their hearts, felt they had no choice but to die and have many others die with them.

And once again I am overwhelmed by hate.

And I hate them for killing innocent people. I hate them for perverting the tenets of my faith for their purpose. I hate them for making life a little harder for muslims. But I also hate them for invalidating any argument against the war on the middle-east. I hate them for holding the same opinions as me, but differing so wildly from what one would have thought would bind us spiritually. I hate them for making our valid arguments so hollow and empty.

There is no excuse for what they have done. I cannot put much faith in the commonly held belief that these were angry young men who were radicalised or brainwashed by mad 'Imams'.

I don't believe people can be brainwashed so easily. These bombers had true faith in what they were doing, I am sure of it. No one wastes their life for the beliefs of others. I would say the potential for committing a crime of such a scale was always there, as indeed it is in all of us. Passion can drive a person to great many crimes, if fuelled properly. It would silly to deny it. I believe people are born essentially good, but also with the capacity to commit evil. But the potential for such evil acts - as has been proven two Thursdays ago - is greater in some than others. And whatever these radical imams did, it was little more than encouragement to tear away at good inside the person, in order that they may utilise the evil within them.

And it makes me sad. Sad to think that these young men - with their boundless passion - could have been formidable leaders against injustice in the middle-east. If only that passion had been channelled in a democratic and constructive way. Who knows if those names which we now hold in contempt, would have been ones we would now utter in respect.

So I am a little lost, I am gaining back my hate of Bush's imperialistic adventures and I have gained a deeper hate of those who commit mass murder and especially those who do so in the name of my faith. So I have plently of hate, the only problem is, what do I do with it?

All I know now is that - after all that has happened in the world - I can no longer do nothing.